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i finally feel fully prepared for this saturday's race. it's rare. especially since for the past two years it's always been so hard to have consistent, proper training. yup so in rgs terms- i feel like i have studied enough for my test to score well. i am hoping for something below 1hr 30mins. must must must.
tapering has been going alright as well. my hip's getting better. i think. and i'm more comfortable on my bike- despite falling off it on sunday. lol. yes! so i am excited. i'm just quite afraid of what will happen after. you know? when people stop coming for training as much... when you have nothing to "look forward to", to "work for". that kind of thing. scared..i am scared.
getting to know alisa better (: she's so much happier nowadays, i wonder why. but yes it's fun talking to her. people are so nice. heh. she says she wants to go to rj. that would be cool! cos then when i get there (hopefully) she'll be one yr my senior. fun.
jon fong came for training today. so did this guy called willie. or something. he has this you've-seen-me-before face. that common face thing. dunno.
ah yes, dreaded math test is over. i don't know how to feel about it anymore... desensitization in action i guess. hope i don't let mrlui down. he seems to hate me you know. so does lucy. she's always picking on me! why! gah. she likes picking on people. poor mel. i almost died after i gave her my late admission slip for trng, cos i forgot to greet her. but only because i thought we were greeting her together as a class just a minute later. agh hope i don't get demerit pts for that. i don't like her foundation. looks blotchy. her nailpolish colours are also totally off. wait, so is everything else.
if i could describe myself now, i'd call me the social misfit. feeling so out lately. it's sad that there's no one to talk to about training, esp since trng has taken up quite a big part of my life now. just wish that i could talk about how hard the prog was or like how i fell off my bike or like how nice carbon bikes are. bleagh. but seriously, i feel so deprived or something. people around me are talking about how their outside friends are and all, how they go towning go wherever. and me? well i just sit there like some dope. hoho. i miss fielers... i miss fwah too. often think about them. fwah's three heads and exco combi was one of the best i've ever known. and you know i think that's precisely what made fielmente what it is now. miss them a lot. agh i'm quite sick of people violating school rules infront of me. somehow i just get the feeling that it's to spite me or something. the only thing worst than that is them making snide comments at you after you glare at them for doing something wrong (in the context of sch rules). or like going "what?!" to you, as if YOU were the one doing something terribly sinful. got to get used to that. somehow. don't think normal sch population would understand.
well congrats to 6 hp nominees if you guys come by (: happy campaigning man, sounds super duper fun. pretty sure you guys will do great helping out with restructuring and steering the board to much much greater heights! leave a legacy as powerful as the one our sec 4s left us... okay i'm getting all sentimental now. so much i wish i cld say to fiel but never really get to say something to all of them.
i'm waiting for the oc to start. grrr. homework has suddenly become optional. HAHA. sigh. i wonder what mrlui will say when he sees my answer script. hope he doesn't criticize me like he did last time, or make false assumptions that give the impression that i am too arrogant to finish my paper. when in actual fact i couldn't do the qtn! oh garn (as eliza doolittle wld say)
lifted the prompt lock thing. was getting tired of it. just hope people who read this thing.. are not. hm.
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